Little social expiriment if you will. I feel like im the only one who reaches out and makes plans with my friends and that no one really calls or texts me just to say hey or ask how im doing so im not going to contact anyone for two weeks and see how i feel then. I feel like shit all the time and i just want someone to reach out but i am always the one asking others how they are doing. If no one ends up calling we will see what happens after that.
i doesnt matter
oceandeliverme asked: I was raped. It doesn't have anything to do with your looks. Beautiful people aren't perfect. I, by no means, think that I am beautiful. But I've come to learn and accept within myself that this so called "beautiful" that society cares about is an aesthetic. Society should not dictate what is beautiful and what isn't. It's within the individual. Don't let anyone make you think that.
Ya well thats too late. Shit is too hard and honestly no one could really talk me out of it. Ive been told to tough it out and rise above it all but its too much im done. Then everyone tries to guilt trip me by saying that so many people care about me and miss me but really if they cared that much they wouldnt want me to suffer like this anymore. Im not healthy at all in my thinking i know that and i might be viewed as a coward or stupid for wanting this but at this point i really dont care. I feel like shit and no amount of drugs or therapy has changed that so im done with all of it